I looked at Scott his morning and said "you know this is going to work right?" He said "you just have to be ready to do it-- it is like when I quit smoking"
I got a little mad a first but once I thought about it. I wanted to be smaller & fit but I wasn't ready to do everything that the program demanded. I got so tired of explaining to people why I needed to eat so many times a day. I got annoyed at hearing "you are eating again?". I needed to work the program and let it work for me.
It is like my Dad says to my Great Aunt who never follows her doctor's advice-- "when did you get your medical degree". I have quipped this off to people who make that comment now. They tend to shut up after hearing that just once.
I did it successfully before with a trainer and at that point in my life I was single, had my own house and I was my focus.
I am not blaming work or my family but I put everybody's needs above my own health. I am not trying to be selfish but as I put in my signature on the 6WBMO site... " This time I am doing it for me"
I want to be here to enjoy Austin's life & our life with Scott. I don't anyone but us to have a say in how he is raised, I want to be here.
I am not knocking a death's door but I don't want to get even close. I am asthmatic-- enter the meds for that... I have PCOS enter the meds for that. I don't want to be like my Grandmother and have to take a table full of prescriptions before the day starts and again when you go to bed.
She was always a small woman, so size does not matter when it comes to some things, but why up the ante?
I suck at gambling and had to take Statistics twice in college, so why gamble with my life. (Okay I had to take Statistics twice due to a bad first year TA who constantly stopped & started equations---Not exactly a "Math-magician" like my friend Faith--- but you get the point!)
I can honestly say for the first time in along time, I am proud of myself! Not for my photography or this or that... but for taking care of myself.
I also told Scott last night, the blue jeans that I am wearing in the "blue print" picture are not long for this world-- they keep falling off. I bought a pair of black pants a month ago and I put them on to go out in last night and by the time I got down stairs, they were falling down my hips and I kept tripping over them. So they are going to who ever wants them.
I did something risky at the beginning of this journey-- I bagged up the old clothes and got them ready for Good Will. I left myself about 4 pairs of pants and 10 shirts and 2 dresses. I can't go back & I refuse to buy anything else that says size 24. So here is the trick, I am going to buy only clothes that my Aunt can help me alter as I lose. I know 310 is a big number but I am 16 lbs less than I was a few weeks ago. Plus it is almost "that time" so the number should even be lower but you know the whole water weight BS, we ladies go through.
I am having my Lunch while typing this-- Shrimp fried Rice. Not what you would think of as diet food. That is because it is not a diet I am on. Diets restrict, I am only restricted by my imagination. This is my way of eating (WOE)-- every 2.5-3 hours 5-6 times a day. Food proportioned to rev up my metabolism. I do not need to explain it or apologize for it. I will offer the info if someone asks, but other than that, it just is what it is!
Oh yeah, the plan lets me know what foods do not work for my body type and I journal what I eat to track progress & fine tune what helps the weight come off faster.
So far I know that asparagus (which I love anyway) is a God send. A perfect food if you will, a great diuretic. Try to stay away from the canned (added sodium), fresh is best but you can find the spears (flash frozen-- no additives) and they work just as well.
I found them the other day at Aldi for about $2.50 a bag, not bad at all. Also I love spicy food, so cayenne pepper & garlic have become faves of mine for food. I used to hate garlic always made me feel yucky on my tummy. I am thinking that it was the butter or oil cooked with it that made the difference. I have not had a problem now that I don't so much as even use Pam.
I love scallops too so I will be buying some and trying out a new recipe.
Here is the recipe if you would like to try it.
Shrimp Fried Rice
***notice there is no oil in this--- a good non stick pan will get it done!***2oz cooked shrimp (run under water to help get the tails off & rinses excess sodium prior to cooking)
1/2 cup jasmine rice (cooked)
1/2 cup chopped multi-colored peppers (I use the frozen pepper stir fry mix-- this stuff is also a God send)
1 cup spinach
2oz NSA Chicken Broth (I use organic)
Cayenne Pepper & Garlic to taste
Suaté the veggies in the broth on Med/Hi
Add shrimp
Stir fry real good
Reduce heat and add rice (it will get too sticky if you do not)
--- you may need a splash more of the broth at this point and cook until
you are satisfied with the mixture... then enjoy!!!!
Let me know if you try this... it is sooooooo good!
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